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the following several thousand words are basicly a mix between the wonderfull dream in fantasy realms where all woman can give birth to saviour children … mixed with the too much selfreflection of the author having acted out today in a verbally violence threatening manner … i am sorry for all the self flogging and of course for having said this threat today to a person in non fantasy reality … but still… the vision stays wonderfull and is a bon for humanity i believe, with all the flaws of the author ach so publicly spreading out … i still am a private citizen with right to privacy .. not a public figure…this writing is therapeutic for myself… to explain myself publicly to provide some insight into my thinking patterns… oh the so important author andreas … smile ...
nurumleau was telling luehanshe manusha and ilumshi at one of their videochat sessions ... hidden behind software protected walls not allowing the chinese dictatorial behaviour to lessen their freedom of speech ... she told the three how she thinks the orgasmic feelings come to happen when not exciting the skin and lips and genitals but the imaginations inspiring the body to produce the delicious sensations .... it is like ... she was saying in a calm deep voice ... two souls meeting each other just a bit inside or outside their bodies ... humans mostly identify their being attached to the body ... when the soul the possibly eternal partof the person discovers that there is lots of fun in meeting an other soul in the imaginary world... what we are doing when imagining our chosen animal shapes to become a mixed being... this process without talking and looking outwards but inwards ... allows the soul to negotiate with the beloved partner souls how exactly to mingle melt together ... the fruit of a deeply satisfying inner mental emotional congregation... two souls becoming one for brief moments ... allows a third being to descend from the sky or ascend from the depths of earth ... into the egg what has been nested prepared by our female bodies to bring forth the blessing of two souls moments of unity ... into the outer material world by fertilizing the egg with a third souls essence ... how this innerly befruchtet quickened egg then grows further depends mostly on its mothe
on its mothers desires and wishes ... = luanshe and me are wishing so much for our two tribes voelker people to live together in harmony and mutual understanding ... chinese people have suffered trough millenias of violent dominators supressing their own people ... tibetans have endured too many hardships and material scarcity in feudalistic times ... it is then when i as a mountain goat and luanshe as an eagle innerly out of body but gently within it at the same time meet without words looks and only few.touch.movements ... it is in these moments when we spur a path for our two different cultures ... a way forward where every human being is sovereign ... every person small or big ... one year old or 89 ... is the only chief and master on all matters concerning his her body mind and soul... no one wether spiritually nor in the way of physical violence having gained more power than others ... no one shall be allowed to rule above another person ... only the local community ... can help the individual to decide wether one person can use 500 or 5000 sqm of land to grow vegetables grain and fruits on ... wether a boy or girl wants to open up this or that artisan workshop ... the local community is the highest form of authority when it comes to distribution of land rights and ressources on and under it ... wether this decisions ... who can use what land trees water etc in what manner for how long ... are being decided in consensual ways ... every member of local community agre
agreeing ... or with a 75 percent majority ... or a 51 ... is up to each local village and city quarter = while nurumleau was sharing to the tree her learned insights ... it was dawning on manusha and ilumshi too that inside they were preparing a way forward ... each time the two congolese girls who carried within them hundreds of years of rape and war group soul memories ... each time they leyed themselves naked beside each other gently touching but not moving each others naked skin ... each time lioness found tigress in inner out of body imagination worlds ... each time huge chunks of violent past experiences got released and dissolved ... their harddisk space ... brain cells of the girls ... being fired joyfully ecstatically with the promise of a future generation what would not let that happen anymore ... no one single woman or girl shall be raped neither in the congo nor anywhere on the globe... the local villages who will empower themselves again ... dissolving all bonds to regional dominators and nation states ... the local community will protect all its villagers and city quarter citizens at all times ... oh it was still tears and bitterness coming up in the two girls ... they were still at the beginning of their alchemic path to become the great pure future enablers they were= when nurumleau had finished talking about how she with luenshe worked to create a future for china and tibet in mutual respect ... without anyone dominating anyone else ... luamshi was excite
was excitedly blurting out ... hey nurumleau... would it be possible for us to give birth to a being who could bring much good to the world like jesus christ ... he got conceived by mother mary without her having been inseminated by a man ... = and nurumleau ... very pleased with the girls bold thinking ... yes ... it will be possible once you train earnestly the art of transmutation ... in your wombs the eggs what each month wander from storage to the nesting cave ... these very eggs will be fertilized and quickened by the majesty of you two girls inner out of body union ... what you are wishing for ... the saviour child who ends all injustice and cruelty on this planet ... will descend into your schoss lap ... = ... manusha too now excited ... i hope all the young girls on the planet will know soon of this possibility that they all can be mother to children who will be the saviours of humanity ... yes ... said nurumleau ... this time is now ... this very conversation we are having will be archived and will be acessible by all who are serious in their quests to save the world by bettering humanity
manusha and luamshi were quite excited to hear from nurumleau about the possibility that each adolescent girl and woman bearing fertile eggs ... once the eggs started to wander each month from storage to uterus ... could fertilize their nested in uterus egg with the thought pictures they produced together with others ... and the dying of the not fertilized or inseminated egg could somehow be changed transformed the menstruation process with all the acompagnying blood loss = nurumleau continued telling them her more experimental thoughts ... she knew how to fertilize a nested egg in a tantric partnership... .. and she was not having the egg dying in her anymore since she trained with her partner lueanshe ... she learnt it from a female mountain dwelling person with whom she fantasy imagination wise united for many months before she went to bejing to carry on what she learnt ... but ... so he said to the girls who were asking her to elaborate futher on the subject ... i suspect that the nested egg also can be brought to life on ones own ... like .. if one would find a union with a tree or a rock = of course that.would be a whole lot more difficult to attend as the human being is conditioned for reproduction ... like with an ancient primary directive to put reproduction on top of the lifes piorities and therefor the minds of woman as well as the men s ones ...were structured .. kind of prewired at birth ... na ... eventually it comes with the baby listening and experiencing i
its mother lifes trough ... from there the baby would remember or re activate the reproduction drive ... like the more a young person has been wanted and being enjoyed being in their parents grandparents teacher etc. lifes ... how many adolescent woman who would gladly not have a baby or and suffer from monthly cramps ... because they have not received the good love and attention in their childhood ... rape and abuse ... mind controlling circumcising of thoughts ... and sadly too ... un necessary cuttings of genitals ... munusha and ilumshi were both traumatized of having seen pictures of how girls got cut in their genitals for no medical reasons but their family ordering it to be done to them ... for whatever reasons ... no animal no plant does that ... cutting away something what causes no problems .. causes no pain when left like the creator helped the individual soul to build a body what would fit into humanity ... some human beings were since perhaps some thousand years born with genitals of both sexes in varying degrees of functionality ... the primary function of a penis and a vagina is to pass out of the body urine ... one could call it waste but it was also elexier and medicine ... the cauldron being the human body with fire of digestion cooking this and that food into some sort of compost ... fertilizer what would bring gaia and her children animal plants waterbodies like lakes and rivers ... food ... for all gaia gives to us with allowing us to garden plants ..
enslaving animals ... with all that space she leaves to us ... i have no idea how she can do it being so geneerous giving up all the crude oil and natural gas ... accepting her forests being plundered and reduced ... her animal children wolves and hares being hunted for pleasure ... ah it gets horrible again i am sorry for allways falling back into describing what hurts me with human behaviour ... but i need to get it off me sometimes too ... like ... i am not agreeing to the high amount of lives our consumption costs ... please let us change it with our own consumption behaviour ... = but back to nurumleas elaboration of the possibility to inspire give spirit in a nested egg while lying in full sunshine on a hot rock naked... i have tried ...nurumleau says in a contend humming voice ... to unite with a rock under observation of my mountain teacher ... she did at first follow me partly showing me the thought patterns a rock dreams in ... and in the following sessions when i explored unity with rock counciousness on my own without techer watching ... i could see what wishes a stone can have ... to impregnate my eggs on my own with stone or rock or a tree for example as a tantric partner ... it is a challenge i am going to spend some years with after our planet has been saved from the severe poisoning and depleting humanity is actually doing ... before i will be concentrating on one of my nested eggs becoming a stone and human dream baby ... i will help you girls getting the
the rich suckers money to be moved towards humanitys relationship to the animals trees and so on reparation ... repairing the relationships in between humanity is first or second ... both together ... where a rich person donates money to a reparation project like the global youth collective wanting to custom build exosceleton ai robot helpers for their parents ... the effects might also be beneficial for animals and plants ... a person who had all day long free to invest talking to birds and mice ... wandering in the wildlife being amazed how diverse life can be ... such a person would reduce its consumption perhaps to a half or according to the harmony in how the person spends time in nature ... the author spending each day three to five hours in the wood .. still eats the same amount as when socializing with other humans all day long ... but the author also a bit gaga like ... being angry at people shouting insults ... perhaps his stay in the wood made him intollerant against certain mocking behaviour ... so... andreas is not proud of the times he is angry at people and strong emotions come up ... he is even somewhat sorry and sad his mouth formes insulting words and says them to hurt other people ... a no go actually ... in my future world i would get confronted on it more... nahh... i do most of the times explain myselfes indirectly at the place i insulted someone ... so in the rare occasions i do not appologize to the person directly ..i do tell persons who have a co
a connection with the persons i insulted... so they would get my explanation indirectly .... i do not want to be summoned to appear before court because of insulting or threatening someone verbally ... so i would better settle things ... naah ... it sounds bigger than it is ... again a sinkhole the author puts dirt on himself ... to come down of dreamish speculation and mention again how andreas does not know too much on social groups how to behave verbally non violent... i should allways appologize just to get it out of my stystem ... instead i write about how wrong i did and make it even bigger ... but i am carefull not mentioning private names and not give indications where i insulted someone today ... uups have confessed in this confession to myself and eventual readers that is was today... = back to fantasy bubble where nurumleau is reporting to the adolescent girls about her encounters with trees and rocks ... ilumshi asked... how was that dream with a tree... nurumlea told ... i was one day laying myself naked near a big old tree.. to his feet roots ... opening up my aura and fine body networks to the trees radiance ... how to tell you in words when i saw before my inner eye the juices flowing up the tree from deep under earth in underwater rivers up to the leaves on the top of the trees branches ... = ah yes we know that from our lioness meets tigress unities ... says manusha her attention inwards remembering the blood flowing in venes and artherias ... heart pumpin
heart pumping ... and our emotions being visible by the chemical changes in inside oneselve blood being enriched with hormones sent out from mental inner picture factory ... or loaded in via tv movie documentary watching ... not that one can not learn from tv the same as one can learn with internet and by being in nature ... to understand society s need is possible by just walking around talking to people ...= = but then ... liamshi takes over from manusha ... we would much prefer to see each others insides via tantri or not meditation imagination exercises than to watch a video replay of how our body chemistry changes while in love ...via a heat sensor connected.camera... that too can be interesting to document one s efforts ...= anyway ... how about the wishes of a tree... she little bit demanding and giddy with excitement challenges nurumleau ... who patiently tells luamshi to please use a more respectfull voice and melody when asking her for informations ... you see luamshi ... i have not yet seen so much of how a tree works so i can not tell you what possibly a tree could wish a baby of him with a human being would look like ... but what i do know is that humanity is destined to overcome the being only one species barrier ...how we will acomplish it ... if via inner attention guiding or via sequencing outer dna manipulation ... i severely hope for the earlier technology to become in vogue again before human beings cut open their bodies needlessly and alter their buices
blood juices or implant a metal plastic robo thing inside ... i am happy to be with both my arms and legs with my eyes workin fine too ... so i have no need for implants ... i andeas have dental fillings and roots filled with artificial plastic glue ... so i am allready an augmented human being... but still there is one step more before brain chip implant what i really would not want to happen to me ... like iam pretty sure i will not agree to any offer a private company migth provide via governement assitance ... like ... with an argument... with mind reading chips installed inside the human being ... it would be much easier to pay and receive money ... communicate ... oh how clever ... asking the citizen to help the local community by subscribing to the one global money digital network ... ya no problem will i open an account with the governement to be able to pay with the nation state issued currency ... but the device needs to be outside of the body ... a fine mesh of data reading brane wave measuring hairnet could be acceptable connected to micro loudspeakers worn around ears or conducting sound vibrations with a plastic metal buegel onto ones skull... and or hairnet connected to the dataglasses... who is talking here..mainly andreas again ... the question here arriving ... how much of hassle one is able or willing to put up with just to be able to survive untill somewhat normal conditions are in place in industrialized part of world ... but let manusha come to the
come to the rescue ...andreas stepping out of scene manusha.fading in ... she says to nurumleau ... thank you so much mamma teacher guiding light ... we are enriched by the prospect of soon we will have no more menstruation cramps because we are fertilizing our nested eggs in imaginary unity thoughtforms ... it is not so much that we believe it to be necessary of nesting multispecies being in our uterus ... but it certainly would be something magnificant to give birth to a child what has not only humanities abilities but can fly with feathers it can grow itself on demand ... like birds do ...and knows how to build sunrays receiving photosynthetic leafs
a child connected to source of all possibilities much better than we are right now ... but seeing our progress in the inner discoverings like inside but outside of the body is the eye ... of the beholder again ... = = manusha looked to luamshi or ilumshi ... luamshi ... and said ... we are confident that via the ai robot exosceleton balls and drones working as garden assistants automobile and boatlike transport ... all electric ... solar pannel or lenr powered ... we will have plenty of possibilities to produce material babies ...like to inherit our wishes and dreams to a futur generation... hey but wait... here eventually lies a danger ... the more humanity is trying to be at the helm of ai software and hardware sandboxing stuff together to see what it does ... the less ideal the product gets ... if we impregnate our ball drones ... sounds like hodensack ... not really ... with flying on feather commands or requests ... we will miss out on the ai itself having thought out the simplest way to get x from a to b .... so we shall not be in total controll as the reasoning and explanation would requires too much ressources ... what could be used more efficiently... of course like to use blockchain methodology or what andreas believes blockchain to be ... not all 9 billion human beings needed to have allways knowlegde of what all the other member of the one human family were doing to each other ... local communities forming their own chains where the logins of their members would
in case of future reference ... mmmh.. sounds like datenvorrats methodik ... to save data in advance for further reference ... it is a natural urge of one wanting to understand what goes on in human society on this planet ... data hoarding can become obsessive and harddisks piling up in the cupboard ... mmmh thank god or the good people of archive.org who have allowed me to store many gigabytes of video sound and texts = without ever.having received a letter asking for financial support ... thank you to the charitable people at archive.org ... and it is all without advertisement ... amazing service ... i am relying much on it to host my daily new texts online outside of the walled garden social network ... i am not sure about the rights onto all of this ... if i upload first to archive making it cc0 lizenz or public domain ... mostly cc0 these days ... and only after that donate it to the social network ... the socnet should not be able to claim copyrigth onto it ... i do hope... anyway ... it is therapy i have given myself ... to write a novel this spring ... am getting there ... puffing from the pace thoughts come to assist me chasing 60 000 words written in a month or 5 weeks ... what a joke that is not ... uuugh ... wanting to say something and in the middle of the sentence it turns .. following the flow now was just a bee like sniffing insect visiting me humming nicely ...
datenvorratshaltung ... to keep data of recordings for later reference and searching ... was a delicate thing to do ... needs much space and makes everyone suspicious of being recorded in ones privacy spaces ... naah ... no good ... but then what about evidence ... what if the relatives of a missing persons would be asking the global police force to search for the missing person ... it would start then ... the hunt for street camera archives ... like i have seen in movies where a police force herosized was explained in entertaining modes ... secret agencies following a possibly evil person... mee evil ... would not think so much but still have violent feelings and do insult people needlessly ... = oh what a shame
but anyway ... i have not been beating a person since childhood so i only bellen not biting ... just shouting out empty threats ... and minutes later i would be with the same person in the room and it was all normal again... sort off ... and another small backflash ... uuuh so costly these anger moments in emotional and psychohygiene currency ... = ah no ... it is not such a small thing to threaten someone needlessly ... so whyvnot write two thousand words about it when this chapter has the most wonderfull birth of a child of god ... are not all beings children of god ..or the godess ...or the cosmos ... so somewhere there.would be a.connection between the wonder of a jesus like mother mary giving him birth without a human male inseminating her given his semen to her ... without sexual act ... tantra or not meditative conceiving a spirit a soul could bring jesus or shiva or krishna buddha like babies with all of the fertile woman ...
the connection between the dream of a better future and a present where the author treatens empty with violence ... not everyday of course... like once a year or in a month it would arise to him to be that angry... and i am sory ... it causes me to write that many extrawords beside the utopian future ... mmmh i am somewhat mixing in my own failures to give a kind of dramatic danger to it ... how stupid of me to sabotage the nicest part of the whole story .... menstruation possibly found a cure for ... with a violent ... mmmhmm.. blood is red ... makes violent ... the bull ... but am i a bull ... have not even looked at blood too much these days ... ah no i think i saw some days ago a violent one ... na it was yesterday ... ultraviolent... elektra movie with lots of very.realistic cutting each other with swords ... i shall not watch anymore these sword martial art ... fist and legs are okay to watch ... but swordfight is too difficult for me to digest ... so the threat i used today has a connection to having watched too much swordfighting on tv ... not to the topic of menstruation possible cure ... perhaps it happened to just bring the expectancy down of this possibly being possible ... like ... andreas as a male psychic violent at.times european 40plus age ... has not a freaking idea how it is to be an adolescent nor being a 30 year old himalayan tantric or not practicing saint like person ... mmh saint ... like someone who is being sucessfull with his fellows so nice wo
and again i cought myself in the christian code .. saint ... but also other religion know the cocept of a person who is not owning manu posessions and is trying to think feel act rigthfully ... or left ? ... in the middle entspringt ein fluss ... hae ... movie import again... mayday ... uh no ... do not use such strong code for a situation where one calls for asistence in an emergency situation... no i am just surprised how quickly i accept a movies titel to come into my writings .... ah nah... no problem... words and their combinations ... the same with structures and forms ... are public domain ... i can not go around tell everyone that i would know how trees do this or that ... and from this day onwards my name would have to be drawn in connection to this mechanism ... ha ... trees own the designs how they flow juices arounds ... just having seen something and shared a reproduction would mean no right to the original thing ... but to the reproduction it could be given for ? ... with all the involved processing of demands ... like he you wrote one of your sentences like mine without mentioning me properly ...uh sorry mate no idea you wrote the same ... = or we both have read it somewhere ... ah again hypothetical words bubbling nonsense ... so.. to finish this ... is there a possible connection with me having written something beautyfull and then done something bad verbally ... i do not know so much ...perhaps it was like i needed to be strong in my voice to keep myself
away from an other person i really prefer not to see ... = it is traumatic.for me ..but hopefully not for the reader ... especially as i have not properly appologized today ...it haunts me now... so my advize is to leave a place where on said wrong in anger ... with an apollogy ...= like even if a threat is empty .. it is important for the one who received it to know that the threat is not meant serious ... possibly it did help that after the threat moment i spent half an hour later with the same person in the room without feeling angry anymore ...
.... i think it is enough for today ... could go on and on looking for connection to what happened today with the writing what is the more important to me at this moment ....so blablabla but then also following flow... back to ascende reporting observing what nurumleau and manusha and luamshi needed to experience in their fictional lives = i have.no idea where i was ... ah ya ... oh no ... have to read back
i am seriously considering to delete all the hundred times i wrote down today how bad a threat i verbally did today ... naa only 10 but that is bad enough ... but instead i urge the reader to look at it like psychotherapy ... the future reader would help the author trough time and space like a psychiater listening to a clients experiences = ... i hope none of the readers suffer from violent empty or full threatening madness ... ah but i am not mad just i hear voices ... if good ... novel or short story flows ... if bad autobio x times repetitions start ... mmmh... i should highlight the names of ascende andreas to signal for autobio mode and another colour for when the author ... another word needing high lighting in one colour .. author... when i would have found back to the characters ... like ... where is luanhshe or luehanshe ... he is sleeping while nurumleau is talking with the girls on tantra.or not matters ... why did he not want to join ... ah yes he had no uterus and could not really contribute ... neither has ... autobio alert .. andreas .. he had no menstruation cramps ever and so he possibly is a fantast only what does not care so much about the evolutionairy aspect ... nah ... of course andreas likes menstruation to be optional ... like ... saving a lot of energy for the woman ... but then one could see it from the other side ... how about the nested egg what died and got ejected with blood ... helping the woman to clean herself ... possible yes ... so again
and again meta talk ... andreas andreas ascende ... mmh .. i have no idea how menstruation could be transformed to egg becoming multispecies being ... i am just speculating and trusting that occasionaly i hit the inner.circle of the dart board with my speculations ... was it buddha who said to check everything ...= like half of that 5000 or 4000 words being unnecessary .. autobio notians ... but still worth to read for psychiatry interested
after.around 4 and a half hour in the wood having written 4 to five thousand words half of it half interesting autobio notes one would like to leave the reader today with some new topic ... blockchain covered lots ... every village overtaking former nation state governemental functions for themselves ... check ... unconditional basic annual income for every citizen of.the.world 50 000 ... maximum private reserve.money 1 million ... yes that looks quite wholesome ... permaculture or not talking to mice to negotiate them only eating five percent ... ai robot helpers being the balls and drones for ones work desires or duty ... no idea how many people would choose to live in a flying mary and how many would want to live in a rentfree cityappartement... how many people would choose to build their own house of trees found dead in woods and earth ... but here a possible future topic ....= = nurumleau as well as manusha and luamshi what is ilumshi sometimes ... were interested in ascende s lifeship mary ... ha ... how the heck could they.know of it when the author has placed manusha instead of ascende as the main focus of the textline since about 5 days ... perhaps parallel fantasy reality ... perhaps they do not know of mary the lifeship as more something like... = = nurumleau was telling the girls about her dream last night when she saw ascende and mary the lifeship perma and maima the android robot companion of andreas the author ... she was deeply inspired how mary the lifeship
in a different storyline within andreas head was doing much more than what you girls have dreamed up your future ai robo companions ball and drones will be able to do ... this being still 2017 november when ascende timeline in some of andreas stories is just beginning ... and the robos are not built yet but the youth collective drafting on the investment offering letter... she reported of her brief glimpse of the future ... mary the lifeship is able to rebuild a whole river valley on 500 sqm ... with living trees rocks and a flowing river inside ... she is a highly sentient and build capable being in her own right ... sovereign as a person deciding what service she is offering to whom .... ah here we get to the personality rights of robots ... manusha whispers in to the womans circle ... yes my dear nurumleau laudes her understanding ... ascende.s future is one where each animal and plant and river and machine and ai and human being is sovereign ... all are sovereign ...ruling from above ... themselves ... all are ruling each other ? ... na confusion... the village has all power on local land and ressources ... so the village majority would rule a dispute between village members ... but back to mary the lifeship... would she be able to talk tree language to ask atree wether it wanted to grow inside the river valley simulation inside mary ... perhaps the trees needed not to be real... but built from advanced pouches and tubes printed with ascendes second.generation maima a
ai robot helpers ..yes that is how the dream showed it to me ... in around 5 years from now ... in fall 2022 ascende would build mary the lifeship or better said second gen maima would biocell print grow direct mary lifeship grow assisted by the billionaires groups 100 million financial assistance to buy many times more materials and machinery than what 2000 will give you manusha ... no criticism intended... and manusha responding ... i know ... 2000 is quite a low entry ... with 200 000 for each of the aspiring youth 12 to 28 years old investing into a lighter future where solar electric machinery would do most work... it would make more fun as well as the builds would be more sophisticated when better materials and sensors could be bought
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